April Update 2016

DOWN UNDER DOWN UNDER

 Down Under DOWN UNDER
If you would have told me a few months ago that I would have had to to be this courageous, this brave, dig this deep while down under I would never have believed you. That two of my closest friends, Mike Tarlo and Elaine Macaloso would be gone. That doctors, hospitals, surgery, chronic pain, sleep loss, depression, anxiety, strong medicines, no work, no music or travel would have been my lot, I would have shook my head in dismal disbelief and thought you were absolutely crazy … Well hello crazy.

I want, at this point to acknowledged the transformative, non negotiable, power of chronic pain and it’s ensuing depression. After nine long gruelling months, I’m at last adapting, and, it has been the hardest road i have ever travelled. My compassion has exploded.

Reset! I begin a new, breathe, and remember that I am loved, dear one i am here for you. After which the mysterious and severe nerve damage I’ve sustained in my diaphragm and chest looses its hold and I move forward. Yes and Love. YES i allow, AND i move on, LOVE regardless. As my dear teacher Thich Nhat Hahn says, No mud no lotus.  Dear ones my muddy bloody pond has a crop of splendid lotus flowers blooming now. If you would like one, just open your heart and breathe.